Knowing that, I wonder why I still have some spark of anticipation for this. Well, maybe cuz I love X-Men I think anyone who considered themselves as freak, misfit, or any form of less sociable person could relate to bunch of people who just tried to live & protect the world that hates & scares them. I dare to say I love X-Men (with Wolverine as exception, he is overrated). Why they fight? We don’t care as long as it cool & awesome! Style over substance is the idea ha ha ha.

To make it more cool, now X-Men is split into 2 parties, one with Cyclops in Utopia, harboring their heavy hitters such as Magneto (yup the once arc-enemy now joining Cyclops), Namor (The prince of Atlantean who could withstand Hulk on a fistfight), Colossus (infused with Juggernaut power now & appetite for destruction. COOL!!!), Hope Summer (probably have the same power as Phoenix) & others (C’mon, even as individual these are the best in the business). Other party is with Wolverine who now become headmaster of Jean Grey School for gifted children with regular X-Men such as Iceman, Beast (the hypocrite who choose sides with the Avenger rather than fight along other mutant when Utopia under attack), etc. Bottom-line, today’s X-Men are kick-ass & probably the world strongest team (especially Cyclops team, the X-tinction).

The Avenger? Well, U guys probably already know (this year movie adaptation will released also anyway). What makes it compelling, Wolverine & Beast is an Avenger! So the battle will be interesting. So here is the first teaser which give all comic fans what they wanted, Cyclops team vs Avenger. Check it out.

Awesome!!!! Can't wait for Cycke vs Caps

But then Marvel release another teaser, which somehow makes all comic fans scratching their head, cuz not only all X-Men includes in the battle (Wolverine team such as himself & Beast, even Iceman, Gambit, Rogue, etc) even Wolverine & Beast switch to Cyclops side! This is dumb!!! Where’s the continuity? The…I don’t know what but something is really stupid here I can’t exactly point what cuz it’s so wrong in any level of the terminology of wrong. Even Hulk (the green one), Spiderman & The Thing is joining Avenger (in case U didn’t know, since Johnny Storm A.K.A. Human Torch presumably dead, Spiderman & Doctor Doom is joined the Future Foundation, some replacement of Fantastic Four). Even the match-up is stupid, how come Emma Frost vs Hulk & Colossus fought The Thing? Hell, even Cyclops fought Hawkeye & guess who fought Captain America? Wolverine!! Dumb.

Dumb match

Colossus vs Thing while Emma fight Hulk?

Cyke vs Clint? Stupid

Guess who fights Cap, overrated

Good thing is, Marvel then released the promotional cover for it & boy did we just relieve by it ha ha. This is what we want, Cyclops team vs the newest Avenger roster (including the overrated Wolvie & that hypocrite Beast ha ha). So, just give me some good brawl & results, bet all comic fans wont complaint.

Finally, Scot vs Roger

All of the image so far. This is the most that give a weapon of mass destruction heart scale :

Clossus vs Hulk!!!!

Don’t give a damn bout the story if the battle awesome he he. Just give us some good brawl here Marvel.

I have lots of idea in my head, the one that I already try to write is about two brothers, twin, but one is alive & other is dead. Confuse? Well, at first I don’t know whether the dead brother is a ghost or just some imaginary friend, I’m gonna let the flow decided ha ha.

The other story is bout some serial killer who decided to start a killing spree cuz there’s nothing good on TV so he decides to give something worth watching to the viewers. And there’s also some idea bout a guy who is obsessed with camera so he documented everything, his life including behind the lens. To make it short, a cycle of life from born to die behind the lens.

Ha ha, between this obsession & to fill this blog also my so-called life, I don’t know if I can handle it, but guess all I can say is, here goes nothing!!!

PS : Do check my other blog/story, but I wrote it in Indonesian language though, called Review-Preview, about thjat twins I mentioned earlier he he. Check them  at here. Please give some feedback, some insult, anything he he

I'll treasure this stupid moment ha ha

Somehow I remembered I was once wrote a blog entitled Don’t Be Sad Cuz It’s Over, Be Happy Cuz It’s Happened & just wow, somehow my subconscious told me what im supposed to do ha ha. This premonition made me realize that we all just a drifter in this world, or if U religious, we just live temporary in this world. It’s the afterlife that matter, thus everything in this world only temporary. We never really have something, just likes our children, they belong to the future, we just there to help them, to nurture them. Either everything is only entrusted by God or something ethereal ha ha.

Well, since I’m not that religious, I believe that if something belongs to U, it will comeback to U (Like love or that toys or shirt that sold but eventually appear again in store). Knowing that in my case, I will never see him again, all I can say is God rest his soul or to anyone who will wield him (the unfortunate guy who purchase my stolen IPman), please treat him delicately & to the one who stole him, die U MOTHER-F*3ER-SON OF A *ITCH!! May Ur soul rotten in hell U good of nothing bastard (ha ha ha, still I just can’t forgive him or even me for what happens). But I remember this somehow :

Damn straight B-man!!!

Well, to be honest, having IPman (or any apple product in general) is kinda hard for beginner or casual customer (such as Windows user). He is really arrogant in the connectivity. He can’t connect to other device via Bluetooth (unless it’s another apple product) even when connected via USB cable, he will be recognized as digital camera. If U wants to change or transfer file, especially music or video, U have to install itunes (updated version since my old MacDaddy my Macbook’s nickname have to updated in order to connect with IPman). Sum it all, it’s hard at the beginning (like everything in life) but once U used to it, it grows on U even I come as far as I dare to say that Android is poor-man’s iOS (operation system for apple) ha ha sorry Android fan’s that’s my personal opinion. No wonder Steve Jobs hates Android, the interface, the Android market, it’s kinda same ha ha. But despite the connectivity problem, I fell in love with IPman, HARD.

Other thing that I love is his camera. I know it’s only 5 mega pixel, but man does he knows how to capture my special moments (I share with U later ha ha). Oh, & the application is somehow more user friendly than Android (honestly, if U asks me, apple is more user friendly but Android is more preferable if U want to explore the program, apple serves its user while Android give its user a material to explore).

Man, it’s only like 4 months but damn I will treasure our time together IPman. Damn I miss U big time ha ha. Rest In Piece brothers. Oh, this is some of the photo that I manage to save from IPman to my MacDaddy. God it’s good to have U even for a while bro.

Reminds me of Bandung ha ha

Here comes the sun...

Other side of Bandung

Damn, there’s so much more of those special moments we share, guess I have to works out my photography skill in my PEN & not spoiled by Ur application bro he he.

Sarah McLachlan – Sweet Surrender

It just crosses my mind somehow, after I have a weird dream. I remember the time (circa 1998) when Germany lost to Croatia in World Cup, or also in any other sport events where I was in the loser team, I was devastated. Somehow I remember the feeling of…lost, when u feels at the bottom of the abyss. That sense of helplessness, hopeless, devastated.

That was the time we realize that even sometimes no matter how hard we try, sometimes we just can’t get what we want. Well, some people will refuse this & defy fate, or any other form of denial that U prefers. But that’s how life goes, U win some U lose some.

I remember when I was in my early high school & I’m still active member of soccer team, we was lost to another school in a match that we coulda-woulda-shoulda win but we’re not. It taught me that winning isn’t everything, it’s the only thing ^_^. Harsh but true. It’s natural selection at its best. Thousands, even zillions of competitors but there can be only one winner.

Guess what? I know we all hate losing, but sometimes we face a loosing battle & we have to accept the fact that we lost, maybe its some sort of rite of passage, $hit happens, something must go that way sometimes. I learn it the hard way & I don’t know if this helps or not, even if I’m lost, I could still held my head up high if I know I give my best, even if technically I’m still a loser. Bottom-line, I can accept defeat but not surrender.

But come to think about, I just realize when I saw this picture on my gallery folder, that if U R a religious guy, after all the struggle, all the fight, in the end we have to “surrender” to God, to leave everything in the hand of fate. This picture also haunts me cuz recently I lost my iPhone to a God-damn-@$$hole-f*#in’-cunt pick pocket, after all the rant, rage, swearing, scream, all I can do is just “surrender” & just let go.

So, do I just have to accept that we have to surrender? Well, I still believe that we have to fight & give our best before we decided to surrender he he. Just like McReady said at the end of  “The Thing” that after he survived, battling and somehow “prevail” (man he is one truly die hard bastard he he. Love this movie) all he can say is Why don’t we just…Wait here for a little while…See what happens…Maybe there is something called sweet surrender ha ha (maybe if we falling in love we could say it’s a sweet surrender ha ha ha).

Last photo of my iPhone. God rest his soul & damned that @$$hole, shall U rott in hell

Kemal jumped! Finally ^_^

he. Last Christmas my family (from mom’s line) held a Christmas party at my uncle’s house. It was cool. As usual I kinda have a role to accompanying my nephew, this year they finally decided to swim (last year they still afraid to swim due to the fact they recently watch Deep Blue Sea at DVD ha ha.

It’s always fun to see someone doing their first step, or first try to anything. Love the anxiety, the enthusiast, the scared part & of course the glad part after they manage to do that. My nephew, there are 2 of those menace, the big one Maliq (the menace) who already brave enough to jump into the pool & the little devil Kemal (the chaos incarnated) who still afraid to jump into the water but eventually brave enough to try & enjoys it ^_^.

Cocky Maliq. Cherish the moment dude, while it last

Man, its bliss to watch those critters, probably this is why most people wants to have kids he he. What I learn from this is how valuable the feeling of success, even just some petty, shallow victory. We usually taken for granted a small success that I think will eventually made us forget how sweet victory is (small one though). Kinda like when I wrote about Shallow Victory on my blog previously.

But I guess our parents also turned us into a grim, grumpy dude. When we were little, our parents cheering every success we made (such as the petty ones like able to jump into water, ride roller coaster, etc) but after we grow up? If we didn’t made quite an achievement or ground breaking performance, we rarely acknowledge or praise. What’s up with that? Since they are grim, grumpy & jaded so they have to pass that negative attitude towards their offspring? This action lead us into ungrateful bastard that takin’ anything for granted any accomplishment that supposed to be cherish.

Well, seeing how kids react really reminded me the first time I ever acknowledged my accomplishment, such as buyin’ PSX & Olympus PEN at my own expense, or even remember the first time I success to ride bus on my own (now I’m kinda addicted to it he he). Those are precious moments, but just like quote from Kung Fu Panda, if I’m not mistaken, the past is history, tomorrow is mystery, right now is a gift, that’s why it called present. We can dwell on the past, we have to move forward, cherish this moment & be grateful for what we have. Sing for the moment, while it last.

So, in commemoration of New Year, if U made New Year resolutions (which I don’t, it’s overrated he he), if U made a resolution or resolutions, don’t exaggerated it. Take one step at a time, don’t bite more than U can chew. If U wanna have six packs, don’t wish for it but try little by little such as sit ups every morning or something like that. Well, since I’m gonna be off for awhile, happy New Year!!! All the best wishes, cheers. Again, sing for the moment! It’s worth all the while since we’re not gonna live forever anyway ha ha.

-Joseph Stalin-

Recently, there’s an incident which occur in front of presidential palace in Indonesia, suddenly a guy burn himself to death. Issue, speculation & rumor sparks like wildfire. Unfortunately he, who later identified as Sondang an activist, didn’t leave any message whatsoever regards his motive. Besides the tragedy, some people will mock his method of action as foolish, even some people make a joke that he probably in the verge of nervous breakdown or stress so he chose to end his life with a bang (pun intended). Unfortunately what supposed to be a martyr, a trigger to revolution will probably just ends up at some note of some event in 2011.

I don’t know Sondang motives to burn himself to death, but if U asks me probably is a sign that there’s still some fight, some will, an urge to prove that we are alive. People tend to prefer something that suits them, like hikikomori in Japan that choose to live in fantasy world, in virtual world, thus somehow we build a gap between us.

This gap makes us feels alienated, apart or even insignificant. What worse is, that feeling is a common trait for us nowadays. With technology like Blackberry, Facebook, twitter, etc. We make a distant to those around us, analogy is like this, we made those who are far feels close while the one who close feels far, then gradually we lost contact with other (first we lost interest in physical contact, next we lost interest to interact probably).

Just a note, that’s what most of us will be or probably just some statistic (like Sondang’s case and what Stalin said) like when crime on the street happens, we pay more attention to how often it happens, or when some riot sparks, we just care how many died or the loss it made. We didn’t care for the victim, somehow we lost touch or contact with others. I don’t know if this is signs of we became individualist or what.

Probably it is signs of time, technology that once made to connect us to each other somehow made a gap, a distant between us. Or it is something other like modernity or what? I don’t know. Bottom-line we didn’t care enough for other, even in the village (most people said that this individualism happens only in city).

I mean, lets keep it real, in my workplace, it used to be Human Resources Department, but now it’s Human Capital. People are nothing but an asset, a disposable asset. Just like if we saving money in the bank, we will be input as some data, some number, some code. We are nothing but some numbers in the vast sea of data in the network. As long as it more efficient, fast & cheap, human is only a tool. We always love social media in the net that made us more personal with the net, but honestly we all just some data, some number.

U can disagree but that’s what most company or corporation feels nowadays. If I can speak to them, I have an analogy, a squid can’t be a whale, U can’t expect a banyan tree with bean sprouts seed. If U wanna have a reliable, loyal & competent people/employee, U must pay a handful appropriate price for it. Don’t be a scrooge McDuck dude. Minimum wage ain’t cut anymore, people just have to got something more than life, luxury, etc. This can also apply in other situation, don’t take others for granted, if U wants the best thing in life, give Ur best, don’t settle with the second or any kind of stupid justification such as efficiency, people development, simplification if U don’t give a damn about individual. There’s a reason why it called Human Resource, cuz human are different to each other, unique. We can’t be stereotyped. Put the right people in the right place if U wanna make a success recruit or people development. And it pays to have a good employee.

Somehow this writing shows how I felt about the state of my f*#kin office & most company at the moment. Don’t ever stereotype us, Sondang is an example of why we refused to be just statistic, to be nothing but number. He is, along with Batman an example of how individual strife to makes a difference, whether it’s foray success or not is a different story. The most important is they try, they leave a mark in history (no matter how absurd the history is).

To end this stupid rant, I quote one of the most recognized people & his quote about why individual has to treated differently, not just number :

You can have all the money you want in the world, and you can have all the brilliant ideas but if you don’t have the people, forget it

Tony Fernandez (CEO Air Asia)

Don’t be just a number, we are a person, a human. We are unique, even if it mean we have to start a revolution. We could kill cuz in God we trust ha ha.

Yep, smoking kills, literally

Try midnight radio show ha ha

about that now he is on a process of divorce with his wife. He tells explicit details of the affair (his wife cheats with his best friend in his house, on his bed, WOW with capital word all over it) that makes me wonder, is there’s no such thing as privacy anymore? Ain’t something like this supposed to be hid in the closet or something like that? Well time changes everything I guess, along with narcissism triggered by social media to unleash our thirst to a celebrity (instantly he he).

But if U asks me, the main reason that guy willing to open up like that (it’s like a 100% discount item on a bargain sale he he) is because some symptom I called “Comfort of a Stranger” (sounds like the novel & movie but it just inspired by the title actually). Why a stranger? Despite the connection between listener & the announcer, they hardly knew each other personally, even the guy could use alias or false name to protect his true identity (unless the guy wants the world to know ha ha, narcissism to the max) thus he could tell any story he wants, no matter how atrocious that story is.

If U like me who loves using public transport or visit station on regular basis, U can tell that’s the pace to be if U wanna learn humanity at their best, we can watch how we interact with each other. There’s one thing that makes me love to use public transport, I get an extra compliment, something I called “Packaged Friend” some extra U got if U ride public transport alone. U’ll get a friend, which sometimes U can’t choose, to accompany U (especially if U ride in 2 seats in on row like in the picture).

2 strangers united by fate ha ha

I don’t know if it’s just me or what, but I love to chat with “packaged friend”, talk anything, I  Don’t know why? Maybe cuz I can tell the most outrageous, details & disgracing bout my life to him/her without worrying that he told people that I know he he. It’s comforting to know that we can get a clear unbiased input/insight from others about our problem/s. Or maybe it’s my old gambling habit, I love/believe that if I asks someone who really doesn’t know squat bout $hit I talking about. I believe that that the first response (such as if asks who would win from Barcelona vs. Milan & he/she responds Milan I put my dollar against ruble for Milan ha ha ha) is pure answer without any pretension or second thoughts. Thus I believe that answer shoulda-woulda-coulda correct ha ha (like hearing truth or prophecy from horses mouth ^_^).

Guess I believe that comfort of a stranger have a deeper meanings that I don’t know yet, besides to get input from different point of view. Maybe comfort of stranger holds some “silahturahmi” values (Islamic values that means that we should socialize & be good to others, maintain a good contact, etc), some ice breaking value to make us closer to others or something else I don’t know.

Strangler? My dyslexia kicks in ^_^

Well, besides U could probably lose life or beaten up by stranger, I think that is no harm to try to talk to stranger, we never know what we could get, & that’s the fun part he he. Just like some tag line by some fashion line on the left ha ha (I should get paid for this he he). It will be a better & more beautiful world if we believe in comfort of a stranger ha ha

Battlin’ Jack Murdock’s – Daredevil : Yellow

 Well, it is confirmed that my friend Fery (see picture on the right with the

Stupid face

stupid face ^_^) will be retired, early in his 36 years of his pathetic little life. He will have to retired cuz he is hired as a front liner though he is moved to back office, his contract still mentioned that he will be retired at 36. I can tell that he feels uneasy & looking everywhere for an opportunity for another career.

I mean, 36 are still young, not in world of the job hunting (36 is old an supposed to be in managerial level & my friend still at clerical level), but young in the term of “life begins at 40”. His kid still young, only entering elementary school (which reminds me why I shouldn’t marry at “old age”). But what makes me kinda relieved is that he tried hard to look tough, at the very least it shows that he won’t give up, he shows some will to fight & survive. His fate somehow triggered my mind to give much thought about life..no, probably about man & his way of life, his achievement or probably just some random thought (just like my blog he he) or to be blunt..about failure (considering that retired at 36 is kinda in that division).

I mean, failure is a common theme for most of us (unless U’r the special one that have life paved in gold & everything run smooth), yet we always fear failure. As a common people in term of skill, luck or aptitude, I used to the term ”failure” that somehow I lost some fear upon it (I failed in daily basis or just like Kurt Cobain said, “I worst at what I do best & for this give I feel blessed”). Probably common people is used to it while some “privileged” people will have ridiculous amount of fear cuz they are lack of experience in failure (people with nothing to lose will have no fear upon failure since they already at the bottom ha ha ha).

Look at this way, no man has ever succeeded to, well not to fall in the category of failure. If there is one, I bet rubble to a Dollar or Euro that that person never tries anything. Every great person, especially athlete has to taste failure, in order to know how it feels, how to avoid it, that is a compulsory rite of passage. The difference between great athlete, ordinary athlete, and looser is when they failed. Just look at example from American Football inspired manga, great athlete will stand immediately after they are fall while ordinary athlete took “awhile” before they get up & stand. The loser? They will fall & never get up.

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Why do we fall Bruce?

Which is come to why I wrote this $hit, measures of a man is not by his accomplishment, his victory, but in his prevail over failure, in how he manage to stands every time he is fall, just like the quote above & what Thomas Wayne said in Batman Begin “And why do we fall, Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up”.

That is true cuz it is harder to maintain a victory than to achieve it. It is inevitable that we fall or failed, but we have to climb back & achieve what is right for us, immortality!!! (Sorry, I just watch 300 & Immortal he he). That is the reason why most people dig Rocky series, we saw a struggle, a fight of common people to rise, fall, and climb back, to prevail.

Well, as to my friend, all I can say is $hit happens dude. Glad U know U’r still

State of denial eh?

alive & fierce. If I measures U, guess U are a good person & U deserves better dude. No matter what path U’ll walk, all I can say is good luck & just like the message in Ur tumbler said “Stay young always”. Good luck old man  ^_^ May U find a better job (since we both know anything better than this $hit hole ha ha ha)

Besides superhero (Batman, X Man, etc) or tragic story (Contract With God, Quitter, etc), I dig sport comic, especially manga (one of the best is Slam Dunk & Eye Shield 21). U know what? Sports, not only comic but real activity, will give a deep impact on our psychology. My sister didn’t into sport, thus I can tell she’s not actually a team player (if she’s into sport, she probably into individual sport like running/jogging, or swimming). But that’s not what I want to write about I guess.

And also in commemoration of the 26^th SEA Games on 11^th – 22^ndof November

Indonesia rules!!

(South East Asia version of Olympic ^_^) that were held in Jakarta & Palembang (& Indonesia swiped most of the medal yeah!!!), somehow I just realized that boys, or mans are kinda lucky cuz we were very competitive & introduced to sport in our earlier days. Through sport we learn the cold hard truth about this wicked world, that sometimes things won’t go the way it’s supposed to be (remember how some team win by pure luck while the others try so hard that we can’t help but…cry?) or sometimes U can’t make it on U’r own (team play rules, unless it’s some individual sport like I mentioned earlier) or even sometimes U have to accept that there are things that U couldn’t-wouldn’t-shouldn’t win no matter how hard we tried or prayed or even begged.

Yeah, through sport we learn to accept the fact that by any means necessary, sometimes we have to admit that others is better than us (or luckier, or even cheats) to win or reign supreme. Through sport we learn the term “sincere” & to even though we are lose (thus we are entitled loser) at the very tiny least we could walk with our head held high (even if everyone mocking us).

I mean, the best moment of sport is when we realize that we can’t win against

Just give it a shot!!!

the opponent cuz they are better than us in every aspect but we refuse to give up, to surrender, at least until the final whistle is blown. It’s always makes my blood boils every time I saw someone or some team fight till the end even though they know they can’t win. & yes, we learn how to accept defeat, learn to be man enough to admit defeat & congratz our opponent, to be a good sport and learn to die another day & fight another fight.

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But sport also has its dark side. Its result oriented (sometimes creates symptoms to do “any means necessary” to achieve goals. It makes people sometimes didn’t appreciate process & create instant generation that worship success & labeled defeat as failure without acknowledged the process. We learn to do anything even if we have to sell our soul to the devil (like using drugs, bribe the referee, etc)

Early into sport taught us the tastes of things to come from this world, a competitive dog eat dog – survival of the fittest world. We literally crush our opponent hopes & dreams to accomplish ours. To learn the hard way that some will labeled as “violent way” scary huh?

Well, whether we decided to introduce sport to our offspring or not are purely by choice with our own consideration (though they probably will be introduced at school). But if they into sport, there will be only two options : is it gonna be fields of gold for them or boulevard of broken dream.

Heaven or hell..Lets Rock!!!